Jump into fear….you might surprise yourself :O)

Where do you feel the most uncomfortable?  For me painting a portrait of my son was the largest fear. What if I did a horrible job?  What if I couldn’t capture his spirit?  What if I tried and failed?  What if I didn’t try?  What if I never tried?

The week of Graham’s birthday I thought I would do a line painting of his image….something simple…not too complicated.  Before I knew it I began putting down touches of paint and little by little Graham’s face started to emerge from the canvas.  Over the next 5 days his image disappeared and reappeared in the paint many times.  The day after his birthday I decided it was finished.

Something  happened by spending so many hours trying to capture his image….the gift was spending time with him….hours and hours of time together…a wonderful gift. We lost Graham in 2003 but his bright spirit continues to be part of our lives.

The lesson is to try and try and try….and if you fail….try again….with each try and with each failure you will grow and you will get closer to your intention.  Someday you may surprise yourself :O)

Graham's birthday portrait 2017


8 thoughts on “Jump into fear….you might surprise yourself :O)

  1. What a beautiful picture and touching words. Failure often teaches us the most. People often ask what would you do if you knew you might fail. Yet I often think what would you do if you knew you would fail.
    Spending 5 days with your son is a wonderful gift you gave yourself. One this week you must be so thankful for.

  2. Thank you for sharing this very personal experience. Wow, what an incredible and difficult five days. This brought me to tears. I know how hard this had to be-but you certainly had his bright spirit with you. It captures Graham’s sensitivity and kind heart as well as yours. I know in my heart that he’s glad you faced your fear and heartbreak to paint his portrait. For any of us lucky enough to know Graham- we find him in you and Andrew and in wonderful memories. Sending hugs and look forward to seeing this with you and commending your brave heart.

  3. Laura, this is just beautiful. When I look at your piece I can feel the love and connection. Thank you for sharing this and your beautiful message.

  4. Your painting is absolutely beautiful. You’re an inspiration.
    Love and best wishes for a Happy Thanksgiving and a Happy Holiday Season.

  5. Laura thank you for sharing your loss, your talent, your resilience, your processes and your spirit with us. Wishing you warmth, health and peace for Thanksgiving and always.

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